Release Therapy

Part of me realizes that this blog isn’t the right forum for this, but whatever. It’s my week to hold these duties down, and this is what’s on my mind today. I could’ve taken the easy route and commented on how laughably bad that new Fat Joe album is (a fact that 50 Cent so cleverly pointed out through viral video), or pondered the quality that’d exit the studio after a Slaughterhouse and Dr. Dre recording session. There’s just no way around it, though—my mind is circling around the events of yesterday morning, and I can’t shake them.

After 13 incredible years, I had to put my dog to sleep yesterday. Full-bred German Shepherd; one hell of an amazing canine. The kind of pooch that made every shitty, stressful, failed day seem worthwhile by simply greeting me at the door, tail wagging, smile beaming. She didn’t give a what if I was a letdown on the given day; she was just happy to see me. If only girlfriends could follow the suit of dogs in this regard. Old age caught up with her, unfortunately, and the day that all dog-owners sign up for when they first bring their new pets home hit me like a Tyson-in-his-prime uppercut. I’ve tried to put it past me, but it’s not happening. So, I figure, I have to handle my blogging responsibilities, and this is a hip-hop website; not that of Dog News. How to bring the two worlds of my-dog’s-no-longer-here and rap music? Here’s how, as far as I’ve been able to manage.

Before the music starts, though, let me say this: I totally understand that using this blog as a venue to work out my thoughts isn’t ideal, but I’d hope that people can relate in some way. We’ve all lost someone or some animal that we’ve loved, I’d imagine. Whether it was the dog that you’d had since childhood or a family member. And, being the hip-hop head I am, one way that I’ve somewhat coped has been to listen to records that channel this emotion. These songs aren’t about German Shepherds, but the basic feeling of loss heard in them transcends.

To avoid any further melodrama, I’ll quit while I’m ahead of any further Debbie-Downer-isms. I’ll leave it at this—–I now get why DMX has that “Boomer” tattoo on his back and why the most poignant moment in his “Slippin’” video is the scene when the young-X confides in the pitbull puppy after his mother dogs him. I’m right there with Mickey Rourke, too, who cried publicly when asked about his recently deceased Chihuahua at the ridicule of the gossip blogging circuit.

These are the tracks that best convey what I’m trying to say; just replace the fallen friends with a fallen German Shepherd. If I had any legit rhyme-writing abilities, I would’ve attempted to scribe “I Wonder If Heaven Got a Kennel” (that’s a joke,of course, but, shit, I would have tried in a less-sane state). And if you’re laughing right now at this entire post, or confused, I can’t blame you. It just leaves me to believe that you’ve never lost a best friend. If that’s the case, I envy you. -Matt Barone

For the record, I’m purposely avoiding “The Crossroads” and “I’ll Be Missing You”; both just seemed way too obvious. -Matt Barone

Nas – “Dance”

Pete Rock & CL Smooth – “T.R.O.Y. (They Reminisce Over You)”

M.O.P. – “Dead & Gone”

2Pac – “Life Goes On”

Dr. Dre – “The Message”

T.I. – “Live in the Sky”

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  • murK

    Better Dayz

  • Silly Chilly Willy

    Misery loves a symphony….


  • Tony Grands

    I had a similar situation; I think most dudes had a dog they connected with on a spiritual level.

    Mine was a pure breed Rotweiler (or “rockwilder” for the idiots always saying I’m always trying to sound intelligent…) named Ghost. Dude was the most obedient dog ever, even slept in my kids’ room to protect them & jumped @ the slightest noise he didn’t recognized. & never barked. He bit a dog once because it came to close to me.

    Haven’t thought about him in awhile. My condolences, Matt.

  • Casey

    Esoteric’s new LP about his dog dying

  • Ron Mexico

    no ghostface “all that i got is you”?

    when did that stop being the definitive hip-hop hard times/heartbreak song?

    eminem “rock bottom”

    ghostface’s verse on “impossible”

    …and who wrote this? i got no idea who lost their dog. :(

    • BIGNAT

      that is right ghostface had me feeling like i thought i was poor. he had some harder times and dogs for life by dmx minus that damn long skit connected to the song.

  • RR

    “Dance” by Nas…perfect. I listen to that song whenever I haven’t seen my mom in awhile and start to miss her…

  • DV8

    I feel you on this one. Tony Grands too. I have had 2 Rotties myself in my lifetime. 1st one was poioned when I was 10 or 11. The 2nd one I had to give away due to “unfortunate circumstances”. I totally understood DMX when he came out (except for the barking like a chihuahua part). Once I get around to owning some land I will definetly get me another 1 or 2.

  • EmCDL

    I know ya’ll gonna clown me for this, but I actually lost my cat back when I was in the Army. I was getting ready to ship off to Korea, and after my mom passed away my uncle was tending to the crib while I was away at training. He decided to move out and had no choice but to give her away…I was wondering why she wasn’t running around tearing shit up when I had got back. Its all good though, wherever she is I hope she being taken good care of. I feel what you saying on your blog post though.

  • Escobar9300

    Ah man, how you gonna forget probably the best of these types of songs? All I gotta say is, the best one hands down is Notorious BIG and 112 – Miss You

    If that song didnt tug at even the hardest dudes heart strings I dont know what will. One of the only songs where B.I. came off as truly vunerable.

  • latino heat

    i feel you homie. i had a dog that i picked from the pound when i was in 2nd grade and had until i was 22 years old. honestly she should have been put to sleep about a year before she actually died but my family just didn’t have the heart to let her go.


    Totally understand your animals are just like family. I really feel you on this one

  • Jesus Martinez

    I feel you on the dog…Mine that I had for twelve years died back in ’08, saddest day of my life.

    Anyway, One Day by UGK is a great track that talks about dying and loss (One day you here baby, and then you gone). It really got to me after Pimp C died.

  • GO-Getta’

    “Miss my hommies” – Master P will add nicely 2 that list of urs.

    I used to have cats,dogs and even tried 2 house a bird but since i moved 2 my own apartment its been difficult 2 own those 4 legged buddies of mine.

  • hate

    your dog just died?

    perfect album for that is esoteric’s new shit “saving seamus ryan”

    it’s literally about losing his dog.

    concept album with some fire joints.

  • matty21

    really good blog….feelin it, n yea dat hurt is just related in the music…n i’ma say this, i’ve personally felt dat imense pain from losing a loved one, n once u feel that real pain, u feel like u can relate to anybody going through the same pain, u feel for them no matter what the reason may be, u just relate to the pain…good songs too

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