Ja Rule Releases First Monthly Journal Entry From Prison

Ja Rule is using his time behind bars wisely.

The New York spitter began his two-year prison bid for a 2007 gun charge five months ago and is spending his time penning journal entries, which he plans to share with the world. Rule released the first story today (November 23), a piece about an 18-year-old inmate that was housed in the cell right next to his and attempted suicide, prompting Ja to ponder upon his own incarceration.

Check out the original entry below:

Today I can truly say I’ve been through it all.

A young kid comes in today they put him in the 18 cell right next to mine he looked kinda depressed coming in but nothing out of the ordinary a few hours go past and all of a sudden I hear someone choking he’s trying to kill his self. We all heard it everyone runs to their cell doors and start kicking,banging, calling the CO’s.

Now I’ve seen a person get shot and I’ve even seen someone die from a drug overdose but this was different this was suicide. It was like I can hear the life leaving his body the CO’s rush in the cell they saved him. I didn’t even think some shit like this was possible in these cells. He tied his bed sheet to a pole that’s attached to a sink which is about 3 feet off the ground made some sort of noose wrapped it around his neck then threw himself forward into a boston crab carmel clutch type position.

I never understood why a person would wanna kill themselves life is love & love is living it’s gods most precious gift. After they brought him back to his cell in the suicide suit he cried for hours we tried to console him telling him it’s never that bad to wanna kill yourself.

Turns out he just turned 18 and got his girl friend who is only 16 and her parents pressed charges and now he’s locked up on sex offender charges. He was in school for graphic arts to learn how to make video games. It’s sad cause he’s still a kid himself a good kid at that and now he’ll be forever labeled rapist or sex offender when really he’s probably just a kid in love.

Wow it’s crazy how 2 years can be so close but yet so far when your 18 & 16 it seems far because he’s now an adult and she’s still a teen, but when your 10 & 12 it’s cute and innocent and when your 18 & 20 nobody gives a fuck. It makes me think about Britt and her starting to date I’m not gonna lie at 18 & 16 I’d be at a cross road to but to ruin a young mans life & stain his future is not rite.

At 18 your legally an adult but your really still just a kid I remember when I was 18 I thought I knew everything about life & living as I look back now as a 35 year old man I realize I didn’t know shit LOL and I’m still learning & growing as a man. 2 years that’s what separates me from my family rite now and I look at it as short time but yet when Ish told me that Britt’s acting partner was 17 I almost had a fit even tho she’ll be 16 soon I’m sure he’ll be 18 soon and BAM there it is crossroad LOL.

It’s funny how God puts situations in front of you so you can see it clearly. I trust Britt I know me & Ish raised her well besides she hates Kids LOL. But I also know the intentions of a young man I got my eyes on you lil homie Don’t make me come back to this motherfucker!—Gina Montana

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  • mpire

    Keep ya head up Ja! It won’t be long until u back smashin these fake ass clowns!
    Fuck peace i grill more beef than George Foreman!


    damn…JA a real dude..compasionate..articulate..educated…he a man..to be able to deal with jail time..we all jumped on the 50 banwagon back in the day…but aint nothing soft about JA..keep yo head up homie..you will be home soon enough…

  • styles11

    I loved this on Ja. Awesome dude, just awesome some real stuff that we all need to think about

  • Ian Newton

    Thats real, i wasnt a fan of yours but after reading this i’ll be listening out for you, i hope the time goes quick for you man!

  • http://www.xxlmag.com Om Sag

    “we all jumped on the 50 banwagon” = well speak for yourself ! ,

    Loki hold your head up ^ , i can’t wait for the New Year when your Albums drop , all the tracks so far has been great , it has a “Positive Direction” ( Concept )…….. the way u think my man :) , …….. I’m listening to “Daddy’s Little Girl” , “Real LIfe Fantasy”….

    Mpire !!!!!

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  • Tito African

    Its something to think about…

  • jrash87

    iv always disliked jarules music,allways! but this is some deep shit. im not gonna run an buy his albums or anyshit like that, i just got a lil more respect 4 the cookiemonster of rap

  • chris hatley

    Ja is a punk! I dont like his music, never have. But on some real sh*t, good observation dude, its f*cked up in there, that sh*t can kill you. or make you stronger1

  • http://www.xxlmag.com MASH

    Nic one.U av less than 14 months Insha’alah.We cnt wait 4 ur album.One Love.MURDER 4 LIFE!!!MPIRE!!

  • Sdvan

    U are bout 2 touch the heart of those who detest u subconsciously, gudup men.

  • bryant smith

    that shit so true man…i wish everybody would take time to meditate on alot of these issues..keep ya head up ja. always gone be a fan of urs !!!!!!!!!!!!

  • http://www.facebook.com/ebahmorphy. ebah morphy

    we all miss u dude.u may not be d best but ur presence help bring out d best in doz dat clain they r d best.

  • http://google Hardtheybaryour fcb

    Am short of words Jeff, U are extremely special ahead of ur colligue rappers. THE MOST RESPONSIBLE NIGGA

  • tejay777

    I love you Ja cant wait to see you in free world again.