Sometimes a nigga get confused

A few years ago, when I was about 23, I was having some issues with this woman at my job.

I was working at a White Castle, and they’d hired this woman as an assistant manager. And she was fucking insane. It became clear to me early on that she wanted me to fuck her. She was always complimenting me on how handsome I looked, and comparing me to her dead husband, and talking about how she was gonna have me made assistant manager, and bringing me shit from her house to eat.

I didn’t want want to lead her on or anything, but I’d go ahead and eat the shit. This was years ago, before my blogging career – so to speak – had even taken off to the extent that it has, and I was broker than a motherfucker. I was living on something like $100 – $150 a week; and a man of my stature, I need to spend more money on food and alcohol than most people, or I’m just not gonna be able to function.

But actually shoving my joint in this old beast was just out of the question. Generally, I like to think of myself as a path of least resistance brother. But even a black man has to draw the line somewhere! Not only was this woman old as dirt, but she was fucked the fuck up-looking in a way that you’d probably have to spend five years living in a rural area to truly understand. You just don’t see shit like that on the East Coast.

So one day, I was just like, “Fuck this shit.” I actually threw my apron down on the floor and bolted out the front door, on some Half Baked shit. I’ve pulled the ol’ repeated no call-no show more times that I care to admit over the Internets (people might start to think I’m crazy or some shit), but this was the only time I’ve ever actually walked off a job mid-shift.

The way I left, there couldn’t have been any confusion as to whether or not I was gonna come back. But the next day, the boss called me up and was like, “You know, you can come back, if you want to.” I think they were a little bit short that day, and hence they were a little bit desperate. Plus, I think she was aware of some of the issues I was having with this assistant manager broad. No one else there liked her, either. She had been transferred there from another location, and the thought was that maybe eventually they’d shift her ass somewhere else.

I had to seriously think about it, because, like I said, I was broker than a motherfucker. I already told you fruits what I was making. And keep in mind, something like $230 a month of that was going to rent. Fortunately, they let you eat for free at White Castle, and I was eating literally almost all of my meals at White Castle. I knew, if I didn’t go back, I’d be setting myself up to have to do shit like sneak into my parents’ house at night and see what kind of food I could skim from the refrigerator, and all kinds of sorry-ass shit.

But pride wasn’t about to let me crawl back to White Castle. So I was just like, “Nah, I can’t do it.” I hung up the phone and went looking for another shitty job.

The reason I bring this up, of course, is because I just heard that audio of Young Buck on the phone with Fiddy Cent, crying like a little bitch, and I’m dumbfounded. I’ve spent the last several years of my life on the Internets looking for ways that I might experience a little schadenfreude at these rappers’ expense, and I don’t know that I’ve ever seen a rapper ether himself quite as bad as Young Buck just did.

I’m not even sure what a rapper would even have to do to top that.

Granted, you can’t really compare my financial situation to Young Buck’s. Given the way he was crying and shit, I’m assuming his shit is fucked the fuck up, even more so than I once thought. I was broke, but it’s not like I was millions of dollars in debt to the IRS. You can’t really go into debt when you can’t get any credit in the first place. I know even babies get preapproved for credit cards these days, but not this baby.

And the concept of broke tends to be relative. When you’ve hardly ever had more than $1,000 in your pocket at any given point in your life, even absolute zero isn’t too far off from the best you’ve ever been. I’m sure if you actually reached a point where you had a shiteload of money, and you somehow managed to spend it all plus-some in such a brief period of time, it’d be way more devastating.

Still, I don’t know if I’d be calling up another man talking about how I got confused, breaking down into tears and having him explain to me how I can improve my situation by being more like Tony Yayo. That’s just gay. Even if I did decide that my best course of action was to try to get back in G-Unit, I still wouldn’t have done any shit like that.

If I was Young Buck, I’d be trying to set out on my own. I’m sure he could find a better deal for himself than the one he was getting with Fiddy, even if it just meant signing with one of these independent labels. But I’m sure, in the wake of Tha Carter III, he could find someone still interested in giving him some money. Shitty southern rap is back! Only thing is, I don’t know if his career can even recover from this latest incident. Kissing another guy on the mouth is one thing, but this was just pathetic. Nullus.

  • tobasko

    Nevermind the first shit…

    damn Bol, you are on point once again….

    Bol/Obama 2008

    • I REIGN SUPREME

      Word. Great post Bol! At least you are a man of Pride, whatever happen to having Pride and Integrity. They don’t make men anymore just a lot of Grown Boys. Re$pect Bol!

  • KLETEWOOD

    BOL –

    You worked at White Castle?
    THAT EXPLAINS A LOT. GREAT SCENARIO.

  • peschola

    this nigga fifty iz kinda dirty tho, he really recorded that shit…..but buck fooled the hell out of me, i swore that nigga was real…R.I.P Bucks Street Cred

  • http://www.ab.com Mr. Alex

    Buck’s career is over. That was self-etheridge to the point of no return. He has no street credibility anymore, so selling crack is out of the question. He might as well start filling out applications at White Castle.

    • BYGGZ

      lol,nullus.

  • HERM

    For real, Bol. That shit kinda reminded me of the end of Goodfellas, when a coked up Henry Hill was crying to Paulie, like Damn, man, that’s pitiful.

    Kissing another guy on the mouth = Calling, crying to your ex-boss about how you fucked up

  • major

    yeaahh….i think this Buck fiasco ethers that lil wayne and baby kiss. what yall think?

    • MOE

      NO…NOTHING CAN ETHER KISSING ANOTHER DUDE ON THE LIPS.

  • major

    then again i dont know, them shits is a tie. lol

    • http://xxlmag.com Bol

      Well, at least Lil Wayne’s career has rebounded sales-wise.

  • http://www.internetscelebrities.com rafi

    I thought from the White Castle story that this was going to be a post about Billy Sunday going back to blogging at XXL.

    Good twist on the Young Buck angle instead.

  • Pierzy

    Buck: “I’m know I’m outta line.”

    As Canibus would say: “That’s a bitch move, something that a homo rapper would do…”

  • http://xxlmag.com Billy X. Sunday

    Rafi got Billy Sunday on the brain [ll]

    Bol,
    I was waiting for your drop on this shit

  • giantstepp

    Excellent drop Bol. I totally agree with you on this one bro. Shit is pathetic. Nothing would be wrong with admitting a mistake and working to fix it. But ALWAYS, I mean ALWAYS keep your DIGNITY. I fux with Buck, but that was not a good look.

    ” and having him explain to me how I can improve my situation by being more like Tony Yayo.”

    Bol, Ive been trying to see why Niggas aint peep the Yayo comments that 50 made. That shit was just as pathetic as Buck bowing down. Yayo is the safest/closet or whatever the fuck 50 said cuz hes a shameless grown ass man dick riding! Again, good drop BOL.

  • The Invisible Glass

    Everyone > Bol > Young Buck

  • The Invisible Glass

    But back to the topic. You are on point for once Bol. Young Buck has single-handedly redefined the term “self-ether” with that shit.

  • og bobby j

    everyone talkin how 50 pulled some bitchmade shit by puttin buck out there like that…but Buck did it to himself….

    why he talk tuff when he out and about but in front he’s straight kleenex.

    • og bobby j

      g unit need to come back hard over the justin timberlake “cry me a river” beat

      young buc = junkie

      A nigga just confused….

  • http://egradioonline.com Myk Jones

    I have to agree with ya Bol, i for one know how it is to walk out on bullshit jobs I even faxed someone a big “I QUIT!” (the staff told me they were crackin up for days). But I can’t stomach how buck is essentially crawlin back to fifty basically sayin “don’t do me like you did game or Ja”. But then 50 goes and does it anyway. It says something about 50 too, he can be considered straight heartless (see his baby moms home burnin…hmmm i’m just sayin). As a man i have way to much pride to be cryin about my problems unless he my family and even then i haven’t cried since my grandma died when i was 14. Maybe 50 was right when he said buck had a drug problem cause i can’t see anything else. Unless he really was a chump all along and they just lifted his skirt!!

  • yo

    that was some pathetic shit Buck did. that convo was like listening to boyz II men begging for a lover to come back.

  • http://myspace.com/marko4aoc Marko-V

    No one ever considered the scenario that this might be some kind of hoax. C’mon now. Hip-Hop has drastically changed and I can really see 50 thinkin aloud with his crew about how he knows how to drum up sales by starting controversy and they all will be rich if they followed the script. Can’t you? This is just 2 ridiculous 2 believe. Yo, check out my song Pseudo-Thug on my myspace page @ http:myspace.com/marko4aoc.
    I saw these type of antics coming.

  • http://bigoneonline.wordpress.com bigone

    Did you hear the response track Buck did, talkin’ as if he’s hard again because he sucked 50′s dick on wax a year ago instead of a day ago. Big fuckin’ deal, Buck.

  • http://bigoneonline.wordpress.com bigone

    Also, for the record, I’d say this > the Lil Wayne kissing Baby fiasco.

    It’s worse to be a pussy cocksucker jockriding 50 Cent while crying like a bitch (in the metaphorical sense of course) than being Baby’s sexual play thing.

    Not to say that the latter isn’t creepy.

  • RotterdamSoldier

    bigone said: Also, for the record, I’d say this > the Lil Wayne kissing Baby fiasco.

    It’s worse to be a pussy cocksucker jockriding 50 Cent while crying like a bitch (in the metaphorical sense of course) than being Baby’s sexual play thing.

    Not to say that the latter isn’t creepy.

    Shiiiiiiiiiiiiit LMAO That shit had me almost choking in my food!

    “Sometimes a nigga get confused” now you know that line is gonna go down in hiphop history.

  • chad bro chill

    tears are sadness leaving the body no homo let’s all just leave buck alone

    he should get a tear drop tatooed below his eye cause thats how hes going to be remembered from now on

  • Vicious Seiger

    I just can’t wrap my mind around the idea of crying like that on the phone to one of my boys. We all have moments of weakness but this dude just let it ALL out, blowing his nose like his girl was getting gang-banged and he had to eat her out after it. Buck if you want your balls back their sitting on 50′s Desk in a glass jar. Bol, you hit it on the nail, sometimes it may not be smart but sometimes you have to roll out on your own terms and not look like a bitch. Damn, Buck Damn.

  • Big Rizz

    Fuck ya’ll niggas, people go through al kinds of shit. Buck was in a vulnerable place, probably just smoked god knows what, and poured his heart out to a nigga he thought was real. He did fuck up, but unlike all yall super niggas, he’s human and makes mistakes. He probably owe that man 5 more albums and didnt check the paperwork. Imagine a nigga squeezing your nuts and owning everything that comes out of your ass….It sucks, but he shouldve kept it quiet. Banks and Yayo better watch out, 50 is a cold nigga.

  • 239allday

    Damn Bol, if you could rap as good as u blog, I would be bumpin yo shit(NO HOMO). But I just wanna give buck a pass man. I know he sounded like a straight bitch, but I honestly think it was straight drunk dialing. Come on! We’ve all been there. Not the crying part tho. Why Buck!!

  • http://xxl King Jacob

    This may be the best thing that has happened to rap…hopefully these youngins who base thier lives off what’s hot on BET will have seen this and realize it’s all entertainment, cause these fake azz rappers are not gonna tell em’..Buck looked bad, but in my opinion 50 looked worse…

  • http://www.incilin.blogspot.com Incilin

    “Still, I don’t know if I’d be calling up another man talking about how I got confused, breaking down into tears and having him explain to me how I can improve my situation by being more like Tony Yayo.”

    ^ LMAO. Word up on all this. Funny thing is, Buck is prolly the best one in that click right now. His last album was better than 50′s last joint, Banks, Yayo, and whatever becomes of TOS. Dude should just get his own record deal.

  • Penelope Rodriguez

    Hearing Young Buck crying to 50 over the phone like that made me quite angry. Does Buck know who he’s talking to? Doesn’t he know how 50 feels about people who diss him? I can’t look at Buck the same way again after hearing this conversation. I can’t. Buck lost his dignity weeping over the phone like that. You could hear the snot running out of his nose. Shit’s disgusting. 50 can go on to make more money but Buck? No one’s gonna want to work with him. After hearing that? Buck can make as many hot songs as he’d like, but people aren’t gonna respect him. Buck used to be my favorite member but after this…SMH

    The funniest part was when Buck said “Sometimes…a nigga get confused *sniffle sniffle sigh* LMAO! Shit had me dying. Now I walk around saying that, ’cause like Rotterdam Soldier said, that line is classic!!!

    This situation also makes me wonder if 50 records his conversations with Em, Yayo, Banks, or anyone else…

  • http://www.xxlmag.com the chancellor

    You have to respect fif for this move. This is a smart man, I have no sympathy for buck. We all get mad at shit, but you have to deal with a certain way, and I think that’s what makes you a man

    I’m sure buck is cool, but I have to wonder about this

  • Detroit P

    “and bringing me shit from her house to eat.”

    Damn….So….that explains your current…uhh…condition

  • http://www.myspace.com/GrimeyHipHop Stan

    Every1s callin 50 a bitch for this shit, and I mean at first even I was like “damn thats fucked up”… But I mean really wit 50 sayin 1 thing and Buck sayin another, this was almost like 50 sayin “I told u So…” … But Bol kinda hit on it… Like when U never had shit to begin wit, bein broke still sux, but theres just sumtin real sucky about bein on top and fallin (fuck I wish i knew how to put the line thru words), I mean catapultin to the bottom… And after listening to both sides, it kinda seems like Fif gave him that chance to shine and Buck blew it… Its gotta be hard havin all that doe n fame to really stay focused n not let it get in the way… “50 says GET EM BUCK n records it”

    Baby Kissin Wayne > Buck Beggin 4 Mercy

    MySpace.com/GrimeyHipHop
    will sum1 plz take 2SECS n check me out

  • http://www.xxlmag.com the chancellor

    I mean this guy had Dr. Dre at his disposal. Jim Iovine, not to mention Sha who’s an ill producer, mogul and he had a decent crew, who right now with the way hip hop is, I wouldn’t mind rollin with them. I mean if I was famous I would never blow that shit. That’s like what happened to vinnie chase when medellin bombed at cannes. Lol.

    Curtis “Interscope” Jackson > Young Buck

  • http://www.theunderwriters.blogspot.com THE UNDERWRITER

    They both look dumb with this shit.

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  • WhatYouKnow

    Fag.