G-WHIZ: “It’s never ever a year that goes by where I forget Troy.”
[Troy] was like my savior; he was like my best friend; like my brother. Like, where there was one, there was the other. And if you saw me and didn’t see him, the first question people would ask is, “Where’s Troy?” and vice versa.
[One thing] that’s real exclusive, that people just don’t know, is that for a while I stayed with his family. This was before we even started; before we blew up, this is why we were so close of friends. My mom moved to D.C., [and] I ain’t like it in D.C. so I came back to New York and that’s where I stayed. People thought we was cousins.
We were all there when [Troy fell]. It was one of them things where, you know, when an accident happens it’s like, “Wow, that just happened.” It’s just one of those things I’ll never ever forget… When it happened, it was like in shock and it took a while for me to come out of that shock. I didn’t know how to deal with death… I had never lost anyone that close to me. It was really hard for me at the time. I didn’t even make it to the funeral.
[After Troy’s death] it was really hard [to perform] because when I look to my left or my right he wasn’t there. We had to do what we had to do as far as to keep things going, but to be truthful it was never really the same after [Troy died]. After we got to the Nothing But Love album I really couldn’t do it anymore…
We done did all the touring [and] promotions. We done everything we needed to do for that last album and it was time for the new album and what happened was we were in Atlantic City for a performance; it was like Jack the Rapper of something like that and we were supposed to perform new material and I was backstage and I just couldn’t go out there. I just couldn’t do it and that was the last time I suited up to perform. It just didn’t feel right anymore, you know.
When I hear [“T.R.O.Y.”] it brings back memories, but what it really does for me, it makes me feel good that his daughter [Tantania] can hear something about her father. I’m not sure what it does for other people, but for me it’s a validation of how important Troy was to so many people and that his daughter gets to hear that kind of tribute to her father. She didn’t get a chance to spend time with her dad and she feels that every time this [anniversary] or Father’s Day comes around. It’s important that she know how important her dad was, and he was important to a lotta people.
[Troy’s] a year and a day older than me and we always celebrated our birthdays together—his was the 19th and mine was the 20th—so it’s never ever a year that goes by where [I forget him]. There’s no way I could forget that… [Troy’s] always with me. He ain’t never left me. Wherever I go, whatever I do, he’s with me at all times.
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