Comments on: My Thoughts on Mothers, Sons, Love & Addiction

By: ZAE"KINGPEN"CARTIER

ZAE"KINGPEN"CARTIER — Thu, 20 Jan 2011 21:15:55 +0000

KILLA THAT WUZ’ TRU AND ALL TOO FAMILIAR. I GREW UP LISTENIN’ 2 U BRA, & OUR STORIES SOUND DAMN NEAR IDENTICAL, EXCEPT MY MOM NOW SUFFERS FROM THE LUPUS, DUE TO YEARS OF ABUSE. THE CRACK EPIDEMIC HAS WIPED OUR CITY OF ATLANTA CLEAN OF FULL TIME MOTHERS, SONS, AND LOVED ONES. AS A YOUTH WE GREW CALLOUS 2 THE J’S AND VIOLENCE THAT CAME WITH THE TERRITORY. WE FIGURED HOW TO CO-EXIST TO GET THAT DOLLAR, BUT THE OLDER I GOT, THE MORE I FATHOMED WE WUZ’ DEAD WRONG BIG HOMIE. HOW COULD WE DO EACH OTHER LIKE THAT, I PRAY FOR MA DUKES AS WELL AS OUR CITY… ONE LUV.

By: RonTucker

RonTucker — Sat, 15 Jan 2011 19:18:38 +0000

Wow, so you’re from Detroit, but the name of your crew is Stacks on Deck? You ARE a lame.

By: Joe Morgan jr.

Joe Morgan jr. — Sun, 14 Nov 2010 20:36:56 +0000

Good read Mike.It’s a shame the Rap world doesn’t have more artist like you. I bought your album off the strength of the writings you post here on XXL. And I will continue to buy them because I chose to vote with my dollars. Shot out to El Tico Loco for that Maybach line.

By: mall macenroe

mall macenroe — Tue, 09 Nov 2010 19:32:13 +0000

damn ill orielly wrote a big ass post up there^^^^ anyone read that last one?? goddamn.. let me know

By: smoothsailing

smoothsailing — Tue, 09 Nov 2010 19:18:53 +0000

yo killa this was a great read man, really helps to keep things in perspective. good inspiring read. and hahah ill orielly is on here 24/7 haha that kids nuts

By: Darth H8ter

Darth H8ter — Tue, 09 Nov 2010 04:44:23 +0000

Mike Bigga, I don’t agree with everything you say, but I like you because you think. Hurry up and put out a CD.

By: LightSkinMofo

LightSkinMofo — Mon, 08 Nov 2010 21:52:10 +0000

Amazing read my dude. I can relate to your story man. Honesty and sincerity is what separates you from many of these so called artists. The crazy thing is that I had Monster playing in the truck just last night when I was feeling down and out. Had All 4 U and U Know I Love U on non stop repeat as I drove around in the middle of the night to clear my head. No joke man. Those two songs helped me out beyond anything I could even try to describe. Keep doing your thing my dude, you’re the last of a dying breed. One!

By: PZ

PZ — Sat, 06 Nov 2010 16:41:11 +0000

cosign. Some peoples brains just works differently than normal. This dude is either sitting in a dark room as he wrote that…or watchin cartoons bein ignorant on purpose. People who act like that is on some extrme ends..poor fella. Jesus died for HIM too tttyho.

good read Bigga and that’s real everything you said. Nothin but respect for you sharin and steppin up like that. Keep at it..you got God homey.

By: SKIP ( Will KILL OREILLY )

SKIP ( Will KILL OREILLY ) — Sat, 06 Nov 2010 16:34:00 +0000

………

We get the point fagboy shut up. I aint wanted to respond to nobody shit until now. If a nigga say he done arguing, why the fuck are you still arguing you dumb ass rapper?

Let me put it like this, ILL OREILLY aint shit, his movement aint shit, and ya ploy to get attention didn’t work.

@Tre, I feel ya homie. You can’t argue with a dumb nigga for long because people wont understand who’s who in the end.

Aint nobody gon buy this niggas album except the ten family members who feel obligated to do so. Real talk homie shut the fuck up running your mouth. I hope you do get to move around the country so niggas can remember your name and you can become the new yung berg ( gettin ya ass beat and robbed frequently).

By: Master CHeef

Master CHeef — Fri, 05 Nov 2010 16:29:05 +0000

some very wise advice. i’m glad i read your comment.

By: ILL O'REILLY

ILL O'REILLY — Fri, 05 Nov 2010 13:04:26 +0000

^^^LOFL
You’re the smartest dumb nigga i know,basehead.If you could read on your own dip shit,you already help me reach my goal of making this shit all about me.The more you focus on me,you’re actually shitting on Mike Bigga.YOU’RE MAKING ME THE STAR OF THE SHOW TRE!!!!

Let me take your bitch ass to school for a minute,so go get your tin foil hat and i’ll go get the Dyke Bigga hand puppet…ok let’s begin

Here’s how it goes,i diss you dumb asses and instead of focusing on Dyke’s shit,you sorry lame ass niggas keep yellin my name,sooner or later,my name is all over the comments and then other punk,bum ass bitches cut and past this shit to other sites and start writing about how i bombed on all you clowns.

See,i promoted my name and at the same time took the soapbox from Bigga and made myself visable.You’re not gonna go have sex with anyone but yourself because a true player wouldn’t have to mention it.And you ain’t gettin money because what you’re gonna do is sit your sorry ass back down and respond to me because you’re the president of my fan club.

Now I got an album comin out and just like i used Bigga to call me out to get the ball rollin,I need pathetic dick riders like yourself to keep me on blast,I really wanna shake your hand for keeping the Ill O’Reilly name breathing.You’re my cheerleader,you’re my sidekick hoe.

And after all of this is said and done,all you’re left with is half of stick of non flavored bubble gum and wet Mike Bigga briefs,junior.

If want to reply,knock yourself out.Everyone is laughing at you and you can’t even see it.You must love being shited on.I’ve been wiping Mcrib sauce all over your kufi,and you’re still rockin it.

I know you’re on crack baby status and can’t comprehend this pimpin,but keep replying to me and keep showing the world how retarded you are,scumbag faggot.

By: Tre

Tre — Fri, 05 Nov 2010 06:12:59 +0000

Alrighty tough guy. Ya won. Arguing with a dumb nigga only makes people blur the line on who’s who.

So this will be my last post. I’m gonna go have sex with my chick, get money, and focus on life. All of which you don’t have. God bless the internet thugs, they fill us with great humor. Have a goodlife pussy boy.

Lord willing you don’t get murked being a tough guy

By: Q

Fri, 05 Nov 2010 02:29:09 +0000

Mike, thats why I truly will say I am a fan because you drop true jewels thats every person black,white, young, old, male or female needs to hear. I also believe that you speak for the black intellectuals who cant speak or wont speak up and I thank you. I feel your pain as well being that I am a 80′s baby and my father was and still is addicted to crack cocaine trying to beat back his demons,but I still love him anyways. Alot of 80′s and 90′s babies now grown and with babies need to hear this message and internalize it and we do need to stop this cycle of hate,self-hate, and depression/violence. If we dont stop then it it going to go to our kids and I for one dont want my kids to grow up as fucked up as I did. Alot of our elders will not accept this message but reach out to them and see if there can still can be a connection so that we can try and rebuild somewhat of a spark in our moral compasses/social community. Mike Bigga as alwasy man you are the best rapper out right now and you been the big homie since “The Whole World”(lol bet that took you back)
Peace,
Q

By: scjoha

scjoha — Thu, 04 Nov 2010 21:00:57 +0000

Thank you, Mike, for sharing the story of you and your mother. It touched me and made me cry.
Yes, forgiveness is the key and the only way to overcome all negative, all over the world and in each small family.
No mother and no father wants to hurt their children. They may not be able to give their children as much love as they need. They might be absent due to incarceration or running the streets or being stoned. They might be drinking or doing drugs, and use violence towards their children, be it physical or psychological. But even those don’t really want to hurt their own children. They just couldn’t do it better at certain times. Because they are hurt themselves.
Forgiving them is the only way to heal one self, to overcome the pain we the children suffer from what they did to us or what they couldn’t provide. Forgiving our parents is the only way to break the cycles of violence, drug addiction (which is violence against one self, a way to kill one self slowly) and the inability to give and most of all receive love. To break these vicious cycles that are passed from generation to generation in most families.
Unfortunately, being able to truly forgive and let-go of the anger is probably the hardest and most difficult task in life. It’s a life-long work on one self.
Try to find out about your mother, what’s her story, what’s her pain, her burden of life, that led to her addiction. Try to understand her. And you will see, that she tried to be the best mother she could be under her dire conditions. Then you’re already on the way to forgive her and to find peace with yourself. Don’t forget about your father as well. Even if he was absent and didn’t seem to care about you all your life, never looked at you with love in his eyes. Try to find him, try to see what his burden is. Try to forgive him. Even if he’s already dead, try to imagine him and talk to him. Ask his friends and family about him, talk to other men his age. Try to build a relationship, even if it’s only an imagined one. It’s necessary to find peace with yourself.

By: ILL O'REILLY

ILL O'REILLY — Thu, 04 Nov 2010 20:47:30 +0000

^^^Yawn
Still ridin dick,aren’t you TRE?
I called you a groupie and told you to respond and you do,just like a good hoe.You already helped me take the focus off of Dyke Bigga’s post and put the spotlight on me, so in the end i win.You’re just makin yourself look worse by being baited to respond to pimpin.

Tryin to throw rocks at me just made everybody know who the fuck ya boy is.
Now everybody wanna holla at me.So you did me a favor,base head.Library computer,no dog,i’m at your sister’s house eatin crab meats and pullin a Chris Brown on her when she steps out of line.You know the routine by now,I write somethin like you can respond now child rapist and then you reply back in 5.4.3.2 ….

By: Moving Sideways

Moving Sideways — Thu, 04 Nov 2010 20:27:04 +0000

ain’t that a b.

By: Ff1one@yahoo.com

Ff1one@yahoo.com — Thu, 04 Nov 2010 20:08:44 +0000

Co sign @ poet. Them negative and racist comments need to be deaded.

Great post tho. Killa aka mike bigga, keep grindin. The post was beyond well written. topic was too tough in a postive way. I think ur talents are beyond what u do in music. keep grinding tho.

By: oskamadison

oskamadison — Thu, 04 Nov 2010 17:52:20 +0000

Damn…that’s some gravity for your ass right there. I must say, Mike, you are a hell of a man to share something so deeply personal and poignant with the world. I pray everyday that God shines a light for all of us going through the struggle down here, no matter what that struggle is. I’m only slightly familiar with your music but after this, I must say I will be paying closer attention.

By: Tre

Tre — Thu, 04 Nov 2010 17:44:18 +0000

Not much to say because you’re running out of shit to say.

But you’re actually right. I’m not sure why I’m responding to a corny mufucka like you.

But the fact that you called the blog a desperate plea for attention and then hop on and say the shit that you said, who’s really going for the attention here homie?

Furthermore, you’re talking a bunch of internet thug shit. When more than likely, you can’t bust a grape in a fruit fight, can’t get wet in a thunderstorm, don’t have shit, you’re on a library computer preventing somebody from doing some important shit with their life.

You can’t see me on here because everybody sees through you homie.

By: yeah man

yeah man — Thu, 04 Nov 2010 17:03:41 +0000

Wicked, wicked, wicked post. I’ll admit I was mad critical of your ‘dedicated fans’ post but this one here I rate and endorse to the fullest. Nuff respect king-man, you come from far but you reach regardless. Bless